Written by: Joseph Starzl
Amigos' Volunteer 2012-2013
BECA Program Coordinator 2013-Current
I like to
think that the development of the Amigos de Jesus Bilingual School in the past two
years has mirrored my own personal growth during my time here. The first time I
saw the school, still recently arrived to Honduras, the two most striking
images were the library and the storage room. Both exemplified the untapped
potential of the school—there was a ton of ‘stuff,’ much of it quite useful,
but in neglected condition. The ‘storage room’ was a classroom filled with a
labyrinth of desks, chairs, and forgotten things. The library was a more
painful sight, with so many books in such a state of disarray. Both rooms were
unpainted, lifeless grey walls magnifying their plight. There was
certainly work to do.
I didn’t
know then just how much time and work I would end up investing in this school.
I was only a few months removed from my college graduation, still mostly
concerned with my sweaty, bug-bitten, Spanish-struggling self. Amigos de Jesus,
to me, consisted of a blur of faces, too many names of kids running hither and
fro. I may have been overwhelmed, but the excitement of this brave new world
kept me smiling and mispronouncing greetings to children whose names I probably
mixed-up.
Already
though, I was familiar with the BECA (Bilingual Education for Central America)
organization. Upon arriving to Honduras I had spent two weeks in BECA’s summer
institute, a training program for their teachers that was offered to the Amigos
volunteers. The BECA folk were a savvy group, and I enjoyed both the training
and the connections I made. I left the training grateful for the experience and
completely unaware that I would return to work with BECA. More on that later.
Afterwards the Amigos volunteers, myself included, finally began our life at the children’s home. After an orientation and a few weeks to get a feel for the place, we were handed our job placements. I was to report for duty at the school, to co-teach a brand new Kindergarten class alongside the bombshell Bostonian, Meg Ryan.
The first day of school soon arrived, and it took me a full four seconds to learn that paint on walls does not a classroom make. Now, I’m sure those reading this who’ve been blessed to work extensively with small children will knowingly smile and wink when I mention the word ‘challenging’ in this context. As humorous as they are in hindsight, there’s no need to get sidetracked by all the anecdotes of my adaptation process to the steep learning curve involved in managing children. Yet what stands out to me most during those months was how I was so intensely affected on a daily basis: deeply frustrated with my failures; overly pleased with my successes; disturbed by the situations these kids were coming from; learning to love the kids and completely investing myself in them
While all my
internal chaos unfolded the other members of my volunteer group were similarly
assimilating themselves into the school and home. We were a merry band of
well-intentioned idealists, quite unqualified, but trying our best to learn as
we went along. I’d be remiss not to highlight the assistance the Honduran staff
offered at this point. I remember the principal, Edgardo Osman Quintanilla,
walking into my classroom after a day in which the screams had been especially
loud. He approached hands-in-pockets, with still something of a grimace on his
face despite his efforts to put on an encouraging smile. The ensuing
conversation contained some helpful advice, but more importantly it was a
gesture of support that did wonders for my morale. Nevertheless, the grind
continued.
Education can transform lives, but in Honduras a bilingual
education can open doors, too. This partnership promised to bring new opportunities to the kids living at Amigos—radical opportunities all too rare for kids who were orphaned or found on the streets, survivors who need and deserve a great education. The partnership was formed. BECA would introduce their school the next calendar year.
Back at Amigos,
the Christmas season rolled-in. Meg and I reached the Christmas school-break
eager for the respite, despite having settled into a manageable routine. We
would be evaluated in our one-on-one meetings with Amy and Wilson, the Amigos
directors, to address what our roles would be in the upcoming year. Annoyed at
the few butterflies fluttering in my stomach when my turn came, I tried to make
myself comfortable on their couch as I leaned forward to learn what plans they
had in store.
Along the
way I applied to stay a second year at Amigos—this time with BECA, to continue
working on the school. I needed to see the BECA-school operating with my own
eyes. Every person who visits Amigos and spends time with our kids walks away
foundationally affected, and this means something different for each person,
but for me it was an obsession with this opportunity to leave behind something
truly lasting. Thankfully, I was accepted for the position of Program
Coordinator.
That
beginning period, as students and teachers alike adapted to the new school, was
predictably hectic. But this was a much more productive chaos than what I’d
experienced before. A revamped discipline policy included the school’s
psychologists, the padrinos and madrinas (staff on the ‘home’ side of the
orphanage), and the classroom teachers in the process of addressing
misbehavior. Communication between the home and the school, the two halves of
our kids’ lives, improved. Resources were available now—that weren’t available
before—to provide substantial, individual, support to students who needed the
extra attention. New teachers and a new curriculum brought higher expectations
for our students; gradually, buoyed by the belief we held that they could
succeed, our students reached those expectations. And then of course there’s
the English language learning, something that’s been an absolute joy to watch.
A classroom being taught in a foreign language can be such an intimidating
challenge, that to see our kids persevere, overcome their doubts, and grow has
been nothing short of inspiring. I believe this experience will transform their
self-image, and give them the confidence to tackle future challenges and
adventures, to say nothing of the practical benefits of bilingualism.
Ultimately, I want to see our Amigos kids become leaders when they grow up: for
their families, their communities, and their country. They have stories and
perspectives that need to be heard, and my hope is that BECA helps make that a
reality.
As the
school has developed, so have I. I found a family at Amigos that embraced
me and loved me. I’m lucky for the opportunities I received to take on
increasingly greater responsibilities, and for the patience of those around me
as I struggled to meet those responsibilities. And I’ve been able to meet
extraordinary, interesting people from all over the world during my time here,
drawn to this remote corner of Honduras by our similar desire to serve. I hope
some of their essence rubbed off on me. The best thing of all, though, is that
I’m happy. That’s one of the nice benefits I’ve found about service: it can
make you truly happy.
And
before I write-off: kudos to current Amigos de Jesus volunteer Joanna Gardner
for the incredible labor she’s put into the seemingly-Sisyphean task of
organizing our library. It’s a bona fide book-lover’s paradise now. Definitely
not the only thing that’s changed around here.